Wow, how time flies when you do what you really love to do. Remember how annoying it gets when someone wants to share something exciting with you and just goes like, ‘I don’t know where to start’ and you smile sheepishly at her, mentally restraining yourself from saying, ‘Start from the beginning or middle or wherever, just get the story over with!” I’m kindda hoping you’ll be patient with me and not say that cos for me, it’s a nostalgic moment.
So, I’m gonna start this way…It all started like a seed. You know that tiny thought that just pops at you and keeps nagging at you until you give it more room to expand in your mind and you feel that flicker of hope that it may be something afterall. One minute it’s there and the next different scenarios start playing in your mind, telling you not to bother that it won’t work and you’d just have wasted a monumental effort on nothing. I call it a seed cos like Jesus’s parable about the sower, Femmetotale started in my mind years before I even dared to put it in the soil. I’d been writing for donkey years but never tried publishing anything. That voice always said, why bother?
I finally decided to take the leap of faith and put my thoughts on paper (or should I say, log them on the web?). I had all those familiar voices (especially those on my mind) telling me it was not going to work again. Oh yes, the ‘again’ wasn’t an error. It may come as a surprise to you but I really did try my hands at blogging twice and they both failed monumentally (yea, that’s my new fave word *sheepish smile*). I read about blogging 10 years ago but I just didn’t know how and it wasn’t really this popular back then. Luckily, a couple of years back, I met a friend who gave me some pointers on blogging and helped me sign up with blogger.com. So I started my first blog, springs of dawn on which I posted random short stories I had written. After some months (I don’t remember how many now) I got no comment and no followers. Same friend in his IT guru wisdom, said to me, ‘you have 100% bounce rate, don’t even bother continuing.’ My new blog-best-friend, LBH called this a Saul on her post – Saul breathes down your neck and I agree with her monumentally…lol. I hated to fail at anything so I just gave up and stopped posting or checking it out.
A year later, I got that same nudge to do this cos I remember how fulfilled I used to get whenever I posted something on my blog. So that tiny flicker of hope came again and I decided to start another blog. I discovered wordpress by mistake and really just fell in love with it. I started another blog – aliciaspeaks which no longer exists today cos it’s been abandoned. Yep, I failed again. Weeks after, there was no viewer, no like and no follower. I was bent on getting it right so I decided to try again. This time I did some research myself and learned the basics, using good templates, publicizing, choosing a theme, etc.
On this day, one year ago, I decided to dig up ‘Femmetotale,’ the project I had designed in my mind years ago. The very first post I made on Femmetotale – ‘And you think your problem is the worst‘ got me two likes and three followers. I was encouraged to put up more posts. On and on it went until today, a good number of people are being blessed by my little efforts and the community is growing. Can I just stop at this point and say, thank you for reading this? You make my day! My special thanks goes to Eziaha, my blog choco who prodded me to put up new posts whenever I started procrastinating, Giantsparkle, Snufflylovely and my newest blog choco, Lessons By Heart, and my highest commenter, neniegirl. Many kisses to you all! To everyone reading Femmetotale and all those following and commenting on my blog, you guys are amazing.
The project is still growing and the vision is taking shape. Just like the little seed placed in the soil, there’s no telling how big a tree it might become. To everyone who has ever got that tiny seed called an idea in her mind, all you need do, is keep watering, keep trying and keep waiting patiently. The seed will surely become a tree and I do hope this tree will be like the tree in Matt 13:31-32 which all the birds of the air can lodge in its branches.
Keep being the Femmetotale…